For the last 3 weeks,I participated in anintensive program at Teachers College (Columbia University) for my Masters in Psychology and Spirituality.During 9-hour days,we immersed ourselves in an academic understanding of the inherent spirituality in children,and how spirituality relates to personal healing,教育，substance abuse and depression,and communication.The experiential learning included heart based connection,artistic expression,individual and planetary energy healing,Jungian symbol exploration and,of course,lots of meditation andintention setting.
I will be honest – at times I found the experiential exercises excruciatingly annoying.我已经冥想35年了，have attended conferences since my teens,在世界各地的会议上讲授意图和平衡！For me,returning to school at 45 was clear – my intent was to develop a lexicon of theories in spiritual psychology for my public speaking,and potentially future books and projects.
这是为了我的头脑和智力，not my soul.
As we sat,day after day meditating,I found myself getting more irritable.因为，世界继续发生…徳赢新铂金馆
Brexit,stirring fear and uncertainty
Terrorist attacks in Turkey,Bangladesh,伊拉克,Saudi Arabia
My friend mourning her husband's death to cancer
Philando Castile and Alton Sterling
Police shootings in Dallas
Accepting that we had to let go of Cleo,my brother's dog
提醒人们痛苦，inequality,pain,heartache,年龄，疾病,and loss 徳赢新铂金馆continues day after day.And never,ever stops.
我感到沮丧。Hopeless.Helpless.Sad.而且，I was challenged to think deeply about why I am doing what I do every day.Why do I write,为什么我要在社交媒体上分享？why do I teach,为什么我决定回学校？Does any of it make a difference?Does my definition of有目的地生活make any sense??
我们还在沉思。我让我的抑郁坐在心里，in my mind,let the hurt sing solemnly to my soul.但这次我睁开眼睛，something was different.
I actually opened my eyes.
Here were my fellow students – from as far as Beijing,Lebanon,Dubai,Pakistan,墨西哥Australia,and so many other countries and states throughout the United States – driven by a hunger to help others,to obtain more tools to help others heal on a personal and social level.
Most of them – in their 20's and 30's – were closer to my daughter's age than my own.They were facing their fears,their insecurities,embracing vulnerability and personal healing so that they could reach out to others and make the world my daughters will live in a better place.
这群来自中东的妇女知道，她们的人民应该得到比每天生活在恐惧和悲伤中更好的待遇。The #BlackLivesMatter champions at the forefront of social justice and all those who share on social media remind us that all lives matter and that there is so much work yet to do in this country.The police officers who were ensuring people could express their frustration in safe place.The healers and the incredible teachers who open up hearts.The mothers,fathers and grandparents who are nurturing our most precious children to love and connect and create goodness and healing for our planet.
I prayed a prayer and I prayed out loud that night.I said,"Lord,I'm down here trying to do what's right.I think I'm right.I think the cause we represent is right.But Lord I must confess that I'm weak now.I'm faltering.I'm losing my courage.""
就在那一刻，我仿佛听到一个内心的声音在对我说，"马丁·路德stand up for justice,stand up for truth.And lo I will be with you,甚至直到世界末日。”"
我多么谦卑地记得我们需要继续做内心的工作。We need to connect with spirit,with our God,这样我们就可以坚强地锚定，继续做外面的工作。Our planet,our children,need us to keep doing it.